From expecting to being a mother

Finally after a long span of time I thought of writing here....... from being xpecting to now being a mom....
yessssss manish n me r blessed wid a cute lil princess on 7th of this mnth.....:) :) :) :)

It was a great journey from being pregnant to now being a mother of an angel.....!!!

An infant is being handed over to you by a doctor n its jus difficult to imagine tht you hve to now take cre of this lil chhota sa bacha...:) :)

I jus feel like "arey hw will i tk cre of her wen she'll cry"

I jus hope waheguru guru give me strength n patience bth to take care of her well.......:) :)

n one more thng yeh chhutki si angel badi kb hogi.....??????????????? :) :)

n these manish n me.....we dnt hve time to spend togethr...saara time gudiya k saathe  hi nikal jaata haii... infact these days r quite boring for me bcoz nt allowed to go smewhere for around 40 days....quite sad naaaaa??
kb khatam honge yeh 40 din......???? :( :( :( :(

life changes............

Life is taking turn n knw wat.... m xpecting.,, m pregnant......:) :)
kab hum itne bade ho jaate hai pta hi naii chala......:) :) every one is happy after listening tu the gud news specially manish mom..:) 

so disappointing...:(

Mjhe lagta tha ki manish mere liye ek husband se jaada friend proove hoga, bt i thnk i was wrng sumwhere.
Mjhe samajh mein nai aata ki woh mjhe kuch btata kyu nai hai,,,kya uska ghr mera ghr nai hai??? 
kya mera aur uska relation hum dono tak hi hai?? m i nt part of his family..???
 suruchi aai hui thi ghr, such a small thing bt he did nt even feel like telling me. 
however, i asked him also why he came late frm office..he could hve told at tht time. 
bt shayd woh mjhe apne family matters mein involve hi nai krna chahta. I m really hurt.
I thnk ki woh mjhse sach mein bahut pareshaan haii...


shaadi ek 8 mnths mein hi usey mera rona ek drame k jaise lagta haiiii..:( :( :(


life takes turn so easily n u urself dun knw the reason  behind it...............:( :(

No realizationn even

manish didnt ever realize tht itsss his attitude bcz of whch m nt feeling gud...!!! after so many days i asked him
for a movie on this mnths 23rd bt as usual it was the wrst day of the mnth...nthng special....!!!
he jus came late frm office n thn askd tu visit suruchi place bcz she's nt well....n ofcurse tht is much mre important for 
him....ma feelings,, ma plan does nt matter for him as usual....he never even btherd tu care for ma feelings...!!!


hw could he be soo ignoring.???? i used tu drop ma plan juss bczzz of him,, never ever i used tu go out wid priyanka n 
kirti on sat bcz manish has an off too on saturdays,,,,bt he never ever cares for meee,,,, if he wanna go to mandir
wid his frnd,,he'll definately goooo,,, b it a sat..ma off or watever bloody reason.... :( :( :( :( :(


he doesnt at allllll cares for meeeeeeeeee :( :( :( :( feeling soooo much lonelyyyyyyyyyyy :( :( :( :( :( :( :( he used tu take things so lightly widout even knowing tht itt hurtsss meee...:(

No body actually cares

sumtimes in life there exist certain moments tht u feel like ki nbdy cares for uuu..!!! everythng is wid uu till the time u r there tu serve thm..the moment uu refuse u r gud for nthng..!!!
newaz today i was supposed to leave for cllege on ma own bcz for sum reason cab driver didnt put up... :( :(
n manish told tht he'll drop me..bt i already told him yesterday nite plss get ready fast in the mrng soo tht he could hve dropped me on time....!!!but nthng went well.....i jus dnt understnd tht he took me sooo lightly tht did even informed his friend tu cum 5-10 min earlier in mrng....!!!!
n the wrst is tht wen i complained him on phne he reverted me bck sayng ki late ho bi gya toh kya huaa...:( :(
yaar nw cumon this could hve been dealt wid very easily...he could hve asked his friend tu cum a little early one nite before.....kya meri importance uski life mein itni hi haiiiiiiiii tht he couldn't hve manged for onee day also.!!!
couldn't he askd suruchi tu meet usss at road,,,she was so imprtant tu b picked frm hmeeee....:( :( he did all ths at the cost of gettng me late.......:( :(
suruchi is much much mre important for him tht if she would hve said tu go office early thn itsss fine,,,, if she say tu cum bck frm office early thn itss cmpletely k wid him..be it on raksha bandhan or b it on amit's bday..!!! she could take her specially tu gurgaon jussss to chk a woodland outlet for her slippers.....amazinggg man,,, aur mjhe btana tak bi jaruri nai samjha........ :( :(
why is he duingg like tht wid meeeeeee...????????? i juss cnt understand........
for me toh he didnt even bthered tu cll me n ask tht hve i reachd hmeee or nt..... aaj cab nai thi toh kya itna poochna bi nai banta.... i dun understand his luvv for meee.....!!! :( :(

Some things really disturb

Arrival of a new name in ma list of friends musstt sayy..ujjwal...a final year student...!!
I jus dun knw tht why i talked tu him or lemme clear it out..bcoz of priyanka i jus talked tu him initially.Starting wid a friend n teaching him Software Engineering n now being friend wid him to his so called bhabhi at present,,, talking tu him had alwaysss been gracious for me...!!! He is the nly student whom i talked tuu soo muchh...!!!
to clear out ma relation widd him he is like a younger brother for meee...ohhkk bt as per him brother in law...:) :) rgt..??? I dun knw why he actually talked tu me or wat?? is tht for attendance or any kind of favour tht he could xpect frm me in his academics...?? but I liked talking tu him....I believe tht he's true at heart,,at few places he's wrng 2 but tht tme i jus forgive him like a younger brother...!!! but knw wat i really felt bad for uu wen i heard tht u r nt well n needs tu get operated..:( :( 
I jus hope tht u get well sooon dear n god blesss uuu wid all the happiness in life abhi n forever....!!!!

after a long time

So found time for writing after a long time..... :( :( much of the things are moving smooth..nthng new n xciting in life as such...!!! 
Manish was really rude wid me 2day....i felt very bad.......!!! i jus asked for a ice cream n he replied in anger " ki khaaye,, mare " . I knw he would not have really meant the same bt the words touched my heart very badly. newaz I luuuvvv uuu sweetheart abhi n forever..............!!!