wat next now.........???

Dun knw wat exactly is going on......everyone is getting into preparations for ma marriage.... still nervousness in ma mind........although I knew manish frm past so many months bt there r butterflies in ma stomach..!!!

Is It really ma marriage for which I m a part or sumthng else going on.........

n sweetheart ur cndom story is toh wnderful must say..atleast koi achi jagah p toh chuppate.. :) :)

aur jaanu ab toh me sachi mein hi fed up refusing tht our hneymoon destinatn i ma self dun knw.... wat a wnderful thing going on na...n jus bcoz of uuuu.......itna ki ab toh i didnt feel like asking for ma frst nite gift also tht usually every gal gets frm her husband....ne waz I fir bi luuuvvv u a lottt jaaanuuu...muaaaaaah.... god bless uuuu alwasss mera shona aur mera cndom wala jaanu biiii.... :) :)

Nothing tu cheer up... :( :(

Was I wrng in guessing tht may b our honeymoon destination will be a surprise for me or altogethr a gift for our first nite........bt rather m shocked tu hear frm manish tht he hasn't plannd nethng yet.,,,may b bcz most of the time he is busy wid sumthng important in his life of which m not a part..rgt???..!!!

                 Surprise aisa hoga I didnt even think of...!!!Ab toh m also fed up refusing every1 tht I maself dun knw wat r our plans..!! Bt ne hw the ball was not in my court for this planning......It was totally ur responsibilty to manage this much if u really wanted tu du somethng memorable for our marriage.......!!!

few days left.......... :( :(

Only few days being left out in ma freedom......... Lots of excitement bt at the cost of ma nervousness...!!!

Does everybody sail in the same situation as m I going through...??? :(

Was it such a big deal........

Is the deal tht much big tht papa afforded at the cost of my tears n tht too wen m left in this house for nly few more days...... :( :(

nly a small mistake n mistake bi nai actually bcz i wasnt maself aware of this expense.........!!!

Had I bcum such a burden for every1....if yes..??....then better it would b nt tu arrange ma marriage also... why ma burden shld get transferrd onto sum1 else.....!!! I cn live on ma own..... n if the daily expenses r incurring tht much then is it like tht m willingly putting on to every1.....,,, I wont spend even a single peny on maself from today itself n this I have decided..!!!

n u knw wat I really didnt wanted manish tu get involved onto this matter,,,, bt mera mood thik nai hota toh mjhse thik se baat bi nai ho paati n he himself cum tu knw tht sumthng is wrng......!!!n manish ki toh chhoti chhoti baatein bi at times jab kahin aur se pta chalti hai thn although it really du hurts me bt thn I thnk may b I m lacking sumwhere n not able tu occupy tht place in ur life till now even...!!!

U mus alwas be thnking na ki kaisi ladki haii jab dekho cryng,,,mood offf,,blah blah.....hai na manish???

Actually I dun spare ma tears unless n until it truly hurts me... n these already m upset bcz I hve tu leave ma place so even a small talk hurts me sumtimes..,,tht may nt b a big deal for others..!!!